Wednesday, June 30, 2010

A week later...

I got really busy!

We had a lot of stuff going on at work and then we took off over the weekend to see my lovely friend and her family. It was her parents' 50th wedding anniversary--(waves to K & J if you're reading!). A fun weekend. I miss my friend. I wish we lived closer, but we live on opposite ends of the country. I couldn't live where she lives and she couldn't live where I live, so alas.

My lovely friend has four kids, and the seven, her four and my three) got along great. It was super cute to see them playing together. They swam lots! Three-a learned the phrase "Mind your own business" from the trip--I'm guessing one of my friend's kids says it. It's pretty funny. She doesn't quite get how to use the phrase correctly. She is trying. She keeps asking me what it means.

We returned home on Tuesday morning. Note to self, don't schedule a trip with morning flights! We had to get up at such an early hour for the return flight that I can't even type it. It was crazy. (Also, I <3 the iPad! I love reading books on it. It is so excellent for traveling!)

Work continues to be really, really busy. I had no time to have a "post vacation glow" at work. It disappeared Monday afternoon when I was still on the trip because I KNEW what was waiting for me when I got home. It was a report due to a client and we sent it off today, so tonight, I'm pretending I'm not swamped.

In my pretend play tonight, I did a little cleaning around the house. oNe cleaned in the bathroom. Tomorrow, the woman who is going to work with the girls on school related things (I hate to use the word tutor because that's not what it is exactly) is coming for the first time tomorrow. Nothing like a guest who has never been at your house before to inspire cleaning action.

Okay...I should go to sleep, I'm still tired from the trip. But first, I need to do my push-ups... Remind me to tell you about my new goal of doing push-ups and tricep-dips every single day...3 sets of 10 push-ups and 3 sets of 20 tricep-dips. Oops, guess I just told you. It's not that exciting. I want firm arms; they've gotten flabby because I've been slacking on upper body work.

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Older and wiser?

oNe has finished Harry Potter #1! Woo! It's so fun to see her get bigger. When she was a baby, I couldn't imagine it getting any more fun... I didn't want her to grow up, but now it's here and it's exciting. I love that we can talk HP now. (I am going to need to re-read the books.)

On a related note, Three-a, twoK and oNe all played a card game tonight (War). Very little disagreement occurred. They all figured out how to cheat--heh. I had to keep reminding them to just take from the top and NOT look at the cards.

If I twittered...

If I twittered, I would totally twitter about the conference room chairs in the room where I am currently sitting that squeak EVERY TIME YOU MOVE A LITTLE BIT. Whenever you breathe they squeak. VERY ANNOYING. (As is the all caps typing.) (10:30 am)

Pilates makes me feel strong... and sweaty. (12:00 pm)

I love black olives. They are one of my favorite foods. (They are also one of oNe's fav foods.) (12:50 pm)

I kind of like artichokes... I do like them, but sometimes I like them more than other times. (12:58 pm)

Hey, when I focus on work, and work with colleagues who have complementary skill sets, I think I do really good work! (HEH!) (2:30 pm)

I am excited that I won't be working Friday, Monday or Tuesday!!!!!!! WOOOOOOO! (2:35 pm)

(While on the phone with a friend who is a new mom thinking about going back to work) I have been trying to balance motherhood and work for 8 and 1/2 years and I still haven't done it. No matter what you decide, you'll feel guilty. (2:45)

Where oh where is my 3:00 meeting? (3:07 pm)

My 3:00 meeting got moved until 5:00--making an appointment doesn't actually mean you'll meet at that time around here. (3:12 pm)

Waiting for my 5:00 meeting.... (I feel like I'm in the play, "Waiting for Godot." Okay, maybe not, but I do feel like control over my life is futile.) (5:04 pm)

On another, more positive, note, I had a day in the office without a lot of meetings. I got a lot done... Including an impromptu working meeting over the phone with a colleague who works in the office across the country from where I work. I like days like this. (5:05 pm)

Argh, except, I just realized I'm missing a play date, so I'm sad not to be with the girls. N3nny is taking the girls, so it's not like I'm standing someone up, I just don't get to go have fun. :-(. (See above for working on motherhood work balance and sucking at it.) (5:06 pm)

I hope you enjoyed my twitters that aren't twittered. I have no idea if I'm under 140 characters, but I'm brief. With any luck, my 5 pm will call in a second and I'll be able to go home soon. The question now, is do I go home or do I go work out. I want to work out, but I want to see the girls, too. (5:07 pm)

Monday, June 21, 2010

wrong side

It's an aura! At work! I haven't had one at work for a really long time, if ever.

The weird thing is, it's in the lower right visual field. It's usually in the upper left.... It's ALL WRONG.

The lights aren't as bright and it seems to be resolving faster, so that is good, but it's weird. It's the same light pattern, but in the lower right... (sort from from 8:00 to noon., but mostly from 8 to 4.) The lights are going counter clockwise.

It's been 14-17 minutes and it's almost gone, but not quite. GO AWAY!

Okay, 1 minute later and it's 99% gone. Should be all the way gone soon.

I'm stressed, but I'm not dehydrated I don't think. Maybe, but not like I usually feel.

What would cause it to change sides?

Bleh.

Saturday, June 19, 2010

10



The only chocolate bar I like. The girls and MWH like it too, so I got 10 today.

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Bleh

This morning, I had a meeting from 11-2, I am missing it... wanna know why? Because NO ONE TOLD ME ABOUT IT. Everyone is so busy where I work that they forget little details, like, oh, telling someone about a meeting they would like them to attend.

No one invited me, and yet, I feel guilty for missing. Part of the reason for the guilt is that I'm missing some of it because I am going to watch the girls' swimming lessons from 12-1 and then do my Zumba class from 1-2.

I should NOT feel guilty about missing a meeting I wasn't invited to, and that I made other plans for the time... I work half-time so I can spend time with the girls, I should NOT feel guilty about missing the meeting that I found out about after it started.

I am way too busy at work right now. I'm hoping it will get better next week, when 1) we finish something and 2) the lead for a project comes back and takes over.

I don't feel guilty... (yea, right). Help me not feel guilty!

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Great book

twoK's teacher read this book in kindergarten...

I thought it was brilliant. I bought it. I plan to give it to many 5-year-olds next year as a birthday gift from Three-a.

The talk (redux)

So, we haven't ventured on to YouTube to learn about "things" but oNe has learned a lot from her silk moths.

The other day, she didn't come straight out and ask "how do humans mate..." but it was close.

I just put on a biologist hat and started to explain...I didn't get very far when she said, "Wait, can we talk about this when I'm older so I can write it down so I don't forget? I want to have a baby but I won't remember it when I'm older if you tell me now."

I replied that I didn't think I'd need to write it down for her, but that I was happy to talk whenever she wanted to talk.



A funny related to silk moths... oNe should start silkmothmatch.com... Her first silk moth was a girl and she took it to school and found it a mate. Her second silkmoth was a male and she took him to school and he found a mate...errr, sort of. Here's a summary of the male silk moth's story:

oNe took the male silk moth to school, but there were a lot of male silk moths and not a lot of females. All of the females had mated already and her male was a little "out of sorts." He was looking around for a mate and he finally found a female not currently engaged with a male, however, she was starting to lay her eggs. That didn't stop the little male silk moth, he grabbed her and began to mate with her again. She didn't want to mate.

oNe summed it up well when she said, "Sometimes males are clueless."

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Mmmmmmm



I love this tea! I found it last summer and I love the cool, clean cucumber taste. I love it both hot and iced. It's a perfect summer tea. twoK and Three-a like to drink it too.

In a related tangent, I remember when oNe had cucumber as a spelling word back in first grade. She loved spelling it.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Take me out to the ball game

That's Three-a's favorite song. She doesn't know what Cracker Jack is... She says cracker jam. Heh. I showed her a picture (from the web) of cracker jack and I told her about the toy surprise inside. She got all excited. We googled and watched videos of "Take me out to the ball game" being sung. We sang it.... It was so sweet.

Now, I have to switch back and do a lot of work.... I think this might be "Mommy whiplash."

Maybe the mystery we've been waiting for......

So, we have this project at work, it's my favorite project ever. It hasn't had funding for about 5-6 or so years, but it still lives on because it's that good. (Okay, we had a TEENY bit of funding up until now... very teeny.) My bestest colleague and I had just decided that we had to start the process of closing it down once and for all. On Monday, we spoke to people about the closing process and got the ball slowly starting in that direction. We are sad.

Yesterday, we find out about a potential new funding stream. It wouldn't be the same project, if we got the new funding, but it would be a way to continue the work in potentially a very similar way. (KH, don't count chickens though because it's still a ways off, but cross your fingers!!!) Oh geez... I'm all a flutter. I really, really hope we can do it again.

(Fantasy time....I totally wish Former Supervisor could do the work with us....)

Monday, June 07, 2010

Summer plans....

I am planning summer... and planning... and still planning... and then it's over.

This week, school ends.

Next week, 1 week of swim lessons in the middle of the day to have a little activity to break up the day. The girls will get to play with their buddies (3 boys) 2 days for a few hours.

The next week, nothing is planned, errrrr....I want to get them in a dance class that will meet on Tuesdays. (oNe and twoK will be in one from 3:30 - 4:30 and Three-a will be in another one at the same time and same building. It *should* work.) On Friday, we'll see my friend (D here we come!)! (Despite nothing being planned, stuff is planned.)

The next week, we'll have some stuff and they'll go to dance class (hopefully).

Then it's fourth of July and some stuff (K).

Then we're home and MWH and I will be in charge because N3nny is going on vacation.

Then it's maybe some more swim lessons.

Then.... maybe a week just hanging? ... or art lessons?

Then gymnastics camp....

Then maybe my brother will show up and visit or we'll have to go to the other coast for a trip....

Then it's the week that school starts.... Ay-Yi-Yi.... Where did the summer go??????? It's too short!

Saturday, June 05, 2010

two weekends

Last weekend was Memorial Day. Ahhhhh... Three-day weekends are great. However, this week was busier at work because of it. Last weekend, was a lovely relaxing weekend. Saturday, we took the girls to run errands, let them run through their favorite fountains and then went to eat at our favorite Mexican restaurant.

Sunday, we got together with our lovely friends, ate lots of food, and swam (at P and L's house). I forgot to take my camera, but as I was there, I was contemplating that the camera wouldn't capture that 1) the weather was perfect, and 2) the feeling of happiness being with our dear friends. Yea, I am trying to rationalize and make myself feel better for having forgotten the camera.

Monday, I don't remember what we did, but it was glorious having the day off! I know I baked, we did a teeny bit of cleaning in our loft (it'll get done someday....), and we just relaxed... Oh, yea... I read a ton of a web site to learn some stuff.

So far this weekend, we hung out this morning--the girls' gymnastics class is on break so woo! we got to sleep in and not rush out in the morning. Then I tried to figure out how to get all my FB status updates out of FB. I succeeded with the help of a couple of different tools. This one archives EVERYTHING. It was actually more than I wanted as I just want my status updates. I found this and it was perfect for all the statuses after August of 2008. Something must have changed in FB back then. So between the total archive and that nifty little tool, I have them all.

After I stopped being sucked in to the web, we took the girls to the children's museum and then to dinner at our favorite restaurant and then to a park to run around like crazy people.

Oh, don't call the Vegan police, but I had salmon at the restaurant tonight. I haven't had any salmon since February. I've been toying around with whether I want to eat salmon or not. I decided to try it this evening. If I do decide to eat fish occasionally, it will be very occasional, like once a month or less. Right now, I feel more full than usual from the fish. I don't feel "sick" or anything, but my system definitely was a little surprised by the salmon; right now, I'm not sure I want to eat salmon again.

Tomorrow is a birthday party at a swimming pool and then we're going back to P & L's ad swimming. The girls will be thrilled... double swimming!

One exciting thing, it's not really new, but it's exciting.... oNe is old enough to take a shower all by herself without help! It's super exciting. I never thought we'd be at the day when they were getting to be less and less work, but we are here. I always knew that someday, we'd hit a sweet spot. The spot when they still were young enough to love hanging out with us, but old enough to not be SO. MUCH. WORK. I think we are there. Pretty darn cool!

Okay, off to snuggle with little girls while they still like it.

obsessive? UPDATED

I tend to, um, get a leeeeeeetle obsessive about health things. I told you I got the blood glucose monitor... I couldn't blog yesterday because I was so worried and freaked out. I have tested muchly in the last 48 hours. I was really worried yesterday (Friday). Today, I'm feeling more hopeful. Here's the lowdown...

approximately 2 hours after eating dinner on Thursday, my blood sugar level was 105. I was pleased. I had massive carbs as I had a LOT of whole wheat pasta with broccoli and peanut sauce and two very little squares of chocolate (dark chocolate bar where 10 little squares = 1 serving).

Friday morning after fasting for 12 hours the level was 115. I was NOT happy.
2 hours after eating friday afternoon it was 115.

I decided to skip niacin Friday night.

Saturday morning after fasting it was 98 and 92 (I did two tests just a minute or so apart). Woo! I took 1 niacin yesterday (Friday morning). That's half my normal dose (2x a day).



The plan for now... I'll try skipping tonight's niacin dose and see what it is tomorrow. If it's low tomorrow (sunday) I may add back the niacin on Sunday night and see what the level looks like on Monday. If it goes up again, we'll be more confident that it's the niacin. I sure hope it's the niacin.

On another note, I'm very confused as to why my doctor who ordered my blood tests hasn't called me. My glucose was high, but the A1C was normal. She usually calls.

(Yes, I am obsessing about health issues like my Mother and Father did. I am going to be a real mess when I'm 80!)


Update

Sunday morning 99
Monday morning 97

I skipped the niacin again Sunday night and I'll try adding it back tonight (Monday). I am pleased to see my results around 100 right now.

Wednesday, June 02, 2010

about last night...

I'm not sure why, but I was so tired and my head hurt. I wanted to go to bed early, but the girls were still squirming around at 10 pm. Sometime last winter, I started laying down on their bed to help them settle down. That was fine, but then it took longer and longer for them to settle and now, they expect me to stay down until they fall asleep--give them an inch and they'll take a mile. Two nights, little Miss Three-a was awake past 11:30. Really? I gave up on her and told her it was ridiculous that she was still awake. twoK cries if I try to leave early, but last night I said, "If I don't leave, I'm gonna cry because my head hurts, and I can cry louder than you." She let me go.

Today, my head is much better. I volunteered in oNe's class and twoK's class and went to Zumba. If I'd gotten to hang with Three-a, it would have been a perfect day. I did get to have coffee with a friend I rarely see, so that was fun. I also went to Target to buy a blood glucose monitor. The last two times I've had my blood checked, my blood glucose level has been high.

If you looked at me, if you saw the foods I eat, and if you add in Zumba, aerobics, and pilates (6 work outs a week usually) you would NEVER IN A MILLION YEARS think I should have high glucose. My friend, L, suggested I go buy a glucose monitor and see what happens at home. All told, for 50 test strips, and 50 lancets, it cost $80. I tested after I had eaten my lunch (since that was what was going on when I got the monitor). ~45 minutes to 1 hour after eating my blood sugar level was 136. Perfectly respectable for ~1 hour after eating.

I'll use the monitor to take my blood glucose level again first thing in the morning. The night before the blood test, I ate oatmeal at 10:30 pm. It was regular oatmeal with a little brown sugar (less than a teaspoon) and some sea salt... YUM. Could that have raised my blood sugar. It shouldn't have, as I did wait 12 hours for the blood sugar test.

I did read that niacin can raise your blood sugar. I'm taking niacin because of .... errrrrrr.... I haven't written about my trip to the special rheumatologist, we'll call him Dr. RR here. I need to write about that and tell you about what Dr. RR recommended for me. In general, I got some good new, but he wanted me to start taking a high dose of niacin for its vasodilating properties. I'll have to fill you in, but needless to say, some of the rise in blood sugar could be accounted for from the niacin. I'd *heard* that glucosamine could potentially raise blood sugar, but it looks like there's not a ton of evidence for that, but who knows.

Anyway, I'll keep you posted on the blood sugar, I know you'll be on the edge of your seats. Here's some links that I found today that were interesting. Feel free to browse if you are an information junkie like me.


Graph of normal blood sugar/insulin during the day. (From Wikipedia)


Cool new/future technology for blood sugar monitoring!

Niacin and blood sugar.

Another one on niacin and blood sugar.

Tuesday, June 01, 2010

Trade-offs

It's been very emotional for me as I plan this summer. I want to be with the girls and I want to work; unfortunately, I can't actually do both at the same time. I wish I could take the whole summer off and hang with them, but I don't think work projects would like that too much. I'm trying to schedule my work so that I take Friday afternoons off completely to be with the girls and also so I can be with them some (hopefully most) Thursday afternoons.

What this plan means is that Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday are packed full at work. They'll be such busy days that it makes my head hurt a little to think about those days. June is so much crazier than July, of course, July isn't scheduled out yet. We have a project that ends the end of June and I am really booked up with it. I will be so happy when that one is done. It's been an enjoyable project, but it was a short one (2.5 months) and those are always insane.

Unfortunately, I didn't learn from my experience and I took on another summer project that is short. Theoretically it will be a little less insane, and there is a remote chance that it might not happen. (The client might not be ready to send it out to have us try to implement it! One can only hope! We'll know more this coming Monday. Fingers crossed that it doesn't happen. Although, it would be a fun project if it can happen... AGAIN, a trade-off.)


Next up, I'll probably complain about my insane schedule and how when I went to reschedule a doctor's appointment for twoK, I had to move it to a MONTH later. Is that crazy or what?