cough cough...

I really hate colds. They just drag on forever. Last Thursday I thought I was almost over it. I've had some fairly good days, but now I feel pretty miserable again. I don't think I've gotten anything new. I think I still have full sinuses and I may have a sinus infection. I don't like to go to the doctor, and I don't like antibiotics unless absolutely necessary, so I'll probably just wait it out a little longer.

Can sinus infections trigger a migraine? (Hey DM, my migraine expert...)

I see my OBGYN on Tuesday (annual exam) and if I still feel cruddy then she'll prescribe me something. She's always offering. She (my doctor) has a lot of sinus issues so she is very ready to prescribe something to help combat a sinus type infection... (Even though it is not her specialty.)

Did I mention I love my OBGYN?

I do. I heart her! I've been with her through 3 pregnancies with her and she did 2 of the deliveries (K and T). She was pregnant twice while I was pregnant. She has 3 kids (one before I started and her 3rd one was when I was pregnant with K and a bit of a surprise too). (Heh... If an OBGYN can get a surprise, we all should feel not so bad about a surprise. She's a professional after all. Heh!) She is an amazing woman. I appreciate how well she listens, how knowledgeable she is, and how willing she is to share her own experiences.

I have her to thank for encouraging me not to put off children and for not making me wait more than 6 months of charting for treatment when I had problems getting pregnant. I started seeing her when I was 29 and just married. She had just gotten married too and little did I know, but she was pregnant with her first. She asked me what I thought about children and I was of the "maybe someday much later" school then.

When I hit 30 she told me that I shouldn't wait too much longer. That it gets harder to get pregnant quickly after one turns 30. I didn't really believe her, but she did prompt me to start thinking about it. Six months later, my Mom was diagnosed with breast cancer and it sort of hit home that life is fragile and I shouldn't put off kids for too long.

Six months later I went off the pill. I got pregnant quickly but had a miscarriage. I was devasted. Afterwards it seemed to take forever, and it became clear that something was funky with my body.

My luteal phase was very short. It was just 8-11 days. We did some blood work and it indicated that I was ovulating but my progesterone never was very high. My FSH was a little elevated. My doctor thought clomid would help and it did. That's how we got both N and K. After N we did an FSH day 3 test again and it was still rising. My doctor encouraged me not to wait too long for #2 if I didn't want to have to do more aggressive treatment.

After K, I thought #3 might be fun, but I wasn't ready for another baby right away...I wasn't sure if my body would cooperate. I didn't think I would want to do very aggressive treatment since I already had two beautiful little girls. Surprise... Getting pregnant with T on my own was a shocker. I'm still shocked in fact. Delighted, but shocked!

Anyway... I am rambling...

The point was of all this was that I have my doctor (and my husband--heh) to thank for N and K.

I think I probably would have eventually gotten pregnant on my own, but the wait might have done me in. Who knows how long we would have had to try before we got pregnant the first time. Clearly, (T is evidence) I can produce a good egg every now and then. Any one experiencing infertility or subfertility knows the wait is agony. Some people deal with it better than others. I was dealing, but I didn't feel like me. I felt very depressed. I'm not a depressed kind of person. My doctor knew this.

She also knew that after a miscarriage a pregnant woman is scared out of her mind. She did lots of early ultrasounds for me. She gave me her direct line phone number. I heart her.

Before Tuesday, I need to print out the birth story of T (14 months) for my doctor. I have given her copies of all the other birth stories. I can't decide if I should put my birth stories up here or not. I have them all written in a journal and I enjoy reading them. They are definitely for the girls. We talk about their births too. Miss N knows she took her time and "got stuck." Miss K knows she just "crawled out." (K's birth was absolutely amazing!)

I know I love reading about other people's experiences, and I share a lot, but they are "not current" news now and I can't decide. What do you think?